Can’t believe that I already staying alone in Nilai for 5 months. I had learned to be more independent. From the first month I stayed here everyday I was crying to my ex and felt so lonely. I think he was mad too.Lolx…
Since last month, a lot of unhappy issues between he and I happened in the same time.I’m absolutely upset and don’t know what to do.First I felt guilty I thought I came here to be a cabin crew is a wrong choice,it caused our relationship became worst and worst.I felt so sorry before.BUT now,I’m a wake.Most of the issues are not because of me.I always remind myself “He is not the one that I knew already,he had changed because of somebody,not worth to make myself suffer any more.” This is the way I have to think. I still have long long way to go,u are one of my lesson to make me grow. Too many rumors about u,are they lying or u? Anyway that’s not important any more,the most hardest part had gone through.I did gave u chances before,but u are not appreciate,NOW u want it back,is that too late?I can’t answer.The thing I can only say is “I did love u,but I don’t want to take risk any more,no more hurt from u.” I have to protect myself to avoid getting sad from u because of her. U need someone who know what u want and let me go.Don’t be so greedy and lying.Others might not care bout that,but me,sorry NO sharing!
Well …Nilai is a no life.What I can do is only on9 and hang out with friends.That’s why I don’t mind to take 1 hrs ++ to get to KL.Hahaha… Recently I got my first full salary,it’s cool~ Feeling excellent to get my own earning money.I spent happily give some to my parent siblings and get my own asset…my small Viva car. My friends told me ,for a 19years old girl can do this kind of staff is consider very proud.Are u sure? I don’t know. I just do what I should do,cause I know myself very well,I know what I want.
Now,about my little Viva.Last few days my mum and cousin drove “him” from Ipoh to Nilai to me.It was so touching…appreciate.My cousin brother purposely went to Ipoh and brought my car here and my mum was following as well. What I can say is “Thank u Thank u and Thank u...” Mum I do love u so much.
I've been waiting so so long d.Wish u all are not forget bout that day...
Which day?
The day we met the last time in the photo.I wont forget the moment that Mimi & I wanted to leave.We cry T.T... We hug ...Red eyes and nose...until now the scene is still fresh in my mind.I do remember we always imagine if one of us have our transport that will be super convenient =) not walking under the hot sun,not rushing for the bus,not walking far distance from campus to TESCO etc. Now,soon I'll drive my own mini Viva come back and wait u guys to say "Hello" with her ^^
p/s:Might be back at between 20th-22th of July.
...wish there's not thing happen to stop me going back.Bless me =)
樊跟我妹妹谈过电话就交了给我讲，妹妹上大学读书了，也是一个人生活，听到她的声音我不知道为什么我的眼泪又直飚了……还好她有个很疼很会照顾她的男友。我心一酸，想到不开心的事就哭不停了，也许我整天已经忍了很久，现在终于爆炸了，站在高高的天台上，眼泪流不停……他们全部走出来，让我感受到他们暖暖的体贴。过后哭完了我们再到Cyberjaya找威廉，再到我住的地方Nilai一间mamak看球，Spain VS Germany!其实他们全部都很累了，隔天还要上班、上课，可是他们坚持要把球赛看完，也当陪我，不想我对着四面墙乱想东西。
