Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Recently

Flying for 3 months d,this is the first time taking photo in the cabin.
How I look like when working,can u still recognize me?


This is a glamour but not easy job...Thank god that I still can survive in this line.lolx

Sunday, August 22, 2010

被遗忘的回忆

曾经的我是那么幸福和快乐的…
西湖
那里的夜景是那么美
 
庆祝一起半年了
你那种心思和安排
最可爱
就连我跟朋友讨论功课,你都爱跟
自己就在一旁玩起来
却被遗忘了


爱美到~
 跟随
不管到哪里,你就是在身边
却被遗忘了

被感动的行动
 
去年的Raya我要到KL拍照,一天来回的行程,都是你在为我安排
疲倦,被感动
却被遗忘了
享受
你说那里环境很美,气氛很好,很喜欢那里
却被遗忘了
我工作
只要能在一起,一点机会都不放过
却被遗忘了

面试
你在为我打气
为我开心
“却被遗忘了”
一起办活动
被遗忘了
离开
上来KL前,那种不舍的心情
 
去到那里都好,只要在一起
那天躺在你怀里,听你唱的歌……你衣服都湿了,因为不想一个人走
被遗忘了
在这个地方开始
 
用着双手开始,用这双手结束
你的可爱、感动、贴心、细心,让你自己统统带走……

Saturday, August 21, 2010

这是你要的结果


贪心的人是不会有好下场的,同意吗?
我不是傻瓜,也不是你的玩偶
是你变了,就是变了,不要给借口我和你自己
对我、她(1)和她(2) 都不公平
记得你答应过我什么嚒?“不再撒谎”
告诉我自己,不!是心告诉我……
……我再给你一次机会,我会看见不一样的你
结果?
态度依然保持不变,也许那就是真正的你
满口谎言的你
当我发现她(2)的存在,看见那些所谓的证据
我❤又碎了……
终于明白为何你那么爱台湾的原因
这次,我不能再原谅你
我对你彻底失望
不会再给理由自己,你有多好~
你的好,已经过去了
不管我给你再多的机会,你还是一样会重复
不珍惜,就会失去
为自己的行为负责任
再听你解释,等于在听谎言
为何要在为你心软,然后再心碎 ……


Sunday, August 8, 2010

Vote ME!!!plz

All dears,
I had join a competition organized by U2 timewear,photo contest

When you see this face...
hahaha...Is me
don't wait and VOTE me through
U are not only can vote once,u can vote me everyday once,recommend to all ur others friendsssss to support me~
Thanks .muacXx... 

Kampar

I know this is a bit late to post
...bcos Calyn loh~hahahaha...I've been waiting the pictures from her camera so long d.
Show some pictures first ❤
Wei Wan,Dom,Song,Calyn
They always make me feel wanna back to Kampar.
Song!We having the same year same month n same date on b'day.
LOVEly friends~

Calyn!my second Mama ^^ 


Finally Jessy,Creamy(middle 2) came too,feel so nice...
Felix,Terrence(Right 2) My 10 yrs friends
Although we didn't meet all the time,but all of u are ALWAYS in my ❤
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The memories...I miss it
the lake~~~
i been here before...
Alson...hahaha~he's so nice to me.
walk here before...

I know,every thing had passed.So,juz let it go...

Friday, July 30, 2010

I'm growing


Can’t believe that I already staying alone in Nilai for 5 months. I had learned to be more independent. From the first month I stayed here everyday I was crying to my ex and felt so lonely. I think he was mad too.Lolx…
Since last month, a lot of unhappy issues between he and I happened in the same time.I’m absolutely upset and don’t know what to do.First I felt guilty I thought I came here to be a cabin crew is a wrong choice,it caused our relationship became worst and worst.I felt so sorry before.BUT now,I’m a wake.Most of the issues are not because of me.I always remind myself “He is not the one that I knew already,he had changed because of somebody,not worth to make myself suffer any more.” This is the way I have to think. I still have long long way to go,u are one of my lesson to make me grow. Too many rumors about u,are they lying or u? Anyway that’s not important any more,the most hardest part had gone through.I did gave u chances before,but u are not appreciate,NOW u want it back,is that too late?I can’t answer.The thing I can only say is “I did love u,but I don’t want to take risk any more,no more hurt from u.” I have to protect myself to avoid getting sad from u because of her. U need someone who know what u want and let me go.Don’t be so greedy and lying.Others might not care bout that,but me,sorry  NO sharing!
Well …Nilai is a no life.What I can do is only on9 and hang out with friends.That’s why I don’t mind to take 1 hrs ++ to get to KL.Hahaha…   Recently I got my first full salary,it’s cool~ Feeling excellent to get my own earning money.I spent happily give some to my parent siblings and get my own asset…my small Viva car. My friends told me ,for a 19years old girl can do this kind of staff is consider very proud.Are u sure? I don’t know. I just do what I should do,cause I know myself very well,I know what I want.
Now,about my little Viva.Last few days my mum and cousin drove “him” from Ipoh to Nilai to me.It was so touching…appreciate.My cousin brother purposely went to Ipoh and brought my car here and my mum was following as well. What I can say is “Thank u Thank u and Thank u...” Mum I do love u so much. 

Friday, July 23, 2010

……

回到怡保真的好开心,好多约会,朋友个个在身边感觉就是特别亲切……
我笑过,也哭过
笑的时候身边好像是幻觉,是发自内心,还是麻醉自己?
当我回到自己的世界,一切就回到原来的形状
我说过,我是个很出色的演员,我笑;其实我在哭
回去这几天,许多知心的朋友不断帮助我,不断鼓励我,让我抽离痛苦
说嘛容易……
回怡保的第一天,是他从台湾回来的那天
我清楚知道他下机的时间,那天晚上我握住电话很久…很久…心里好想信息他,可是不敢……再看到脸书上他post的“好想念哪个她”,我告诉自己“不可以!不能找他”
好想像之前那样他从香港回来第一时间很开心的打电话给我,他那份喜悦可以从电话听得见
可是……
我等了一夜,电话此终没响过~
我很失望的睡了……
第二天,我驾着车,闪过的不是我驶过的道路,是一幕幕我们的走过的回忆……
终于,收到你的信息了
我忍痛の再叫自己对你冷漠,这样对自己比较好
你说你有手信带回来给我,所以我们见面了……
见面……
你已经不是我熟稀的那个你,不再像你自己了,你的打扮、你讲话的腔,你的动作
7天,就可以改变你,7天!
坐在kopitiam好久,谈了好久,不时还很冷场
我没有在你面前掉眼泪,我笑着掩饰我的痛
临走时,你向左走、我向右走
那一刻好痛……
我有好多话还没说,也不能说
我舍不得,再打了通电话给你,你停下了脚步,那时我心里只想奔向你紧紧把你抱住
可是我没有,也不可以
因为你眼神告诉了我一些东西……

(1)         

站在栏杆旁,感觉已经很陌生
我只要说完就好……
当我走时,我头也没有回
我完全没有方向的走,走到朋友做工的店,坐了下来
哭了……
朋友什么也没问,就拿了纸巾替我擦眼泪
一切就完了吗?
接着那几天我不断的寻找我的开心来源
朋友是我最大的支撑
我不断约朋友喝茶、逛街、唱K、吃喝玩乐统统做齐
谁知道~那时的开心只不过是暂时性……


这天,我回到了金宝,像我离开金宝前答应你们那样“我一定会回来”
金宝是我读书生涯最开心的地方,也堆满属于我们的回忆……
哪里的建筑物、空地 不怎么特别,但却有着暖暖的感觉
约了一班金宝最好的朋友,走路去吃东西
哈!好久好久没这样了……在这里,都是自己一个人走
谈不完的话题~
时间总是过得特别快,Alson上来载我回怡保
走之前去了西湖~
这里·……
曾经是我最爱来的地方
走过直直的马路,所有的回忆回来了……
我再次忍住眼泪
走下车
不一样的是,我不是跟你来了……还可以跟你来吗?

离开了……
原本想跟Alson去看电影,他埋怨都没跟过他去看电影,哈哈!
可惜,我忘了妈妈有约
回到家冲了凉,又出了……
最后一晚在怡保了,
跟Sam,Leo,Felix,Hazel去唱K
短短的两个小时而已
也去了“糖水街”吃东西、吹水
谈了好多好多
四个人难得聚在一起,不知道几时还可以这样呢?
Sam送我回家
上网打开脸书……
看到“宝贝,你担心的我都替你安排好,bla bla bla...我只想告诉你我好爱你bla bla bla...牵住你的手一直走下去...”我傻去了……
原来你一直在说谎
我一直相信你,是我愚蠢A FOOL~
“不懂得什么叫❤?怎样去❤?不想再❤”
那就是你的意思……
我不想再看到,不想再被骗,不想再伤心
流着泪……
狠狠把你block了……只想保护自己,就这样
我回到房间,Leo刚好打来
我再也忍不到
我痛痛的在电话里对着他哭了……
枕头哭湿了,哭到累了
睡了……
This is not what I wish...

Saturday, July 17, 2010

你不在~

总是觉得天怎么那么不公平
为什么有问题时我总是一个人面对
而你,却可以放松的享受外国的风情
……连问,我都压抑着
也不知道在等什么?

我不说不代表我不在乎
因为说多了就没意思,没惊喜……
什么都等到时机成熟
……可是偏偏就是等不到我所安排的,就来不及

你不在……
我就一直在假装
假装我有多坚强
坚强の好难过

 不想回到从前,它只是我现在の痛
 不要再停留在从前,它只让我不进步

现在我只想放下
放下所有的疑问
朝向❤里的方向
不再遗憾多一次

这就是你不在的时候

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

I'm coming back SOON!!!

All dears,as I promised I will come back.
Yes,I did remember very well.
I've been waiting so so long d.Wish u all are not forget bout that day...
Which day?
The day we met the last time in the photo.I wont forget the moment that Mimi & I wanted to leave.We cry T.T... We hug ...Red eyes and nose...until now the scene is still fresh in my mind.I do remember we always imagine if one of us have our transport that will be super convenient =) not walking under the hot sun,not rushing for the bus,not walking far distance from campus to TESCO etc. Now,soon I'll drive my own mini Viva come back and wait u guys to say "Hello" with her ^^

p/s:Might be back at between 20th-22th of July.
...wish there's not thing happen to stop me going back.Bless me =) 

Friday, July 9, 2010

迟来的……Cameron Highland


六月头……
第二次陪你来金马伦,可是这次有很大不同,这次不只是和你两个上来,则是跟你同事们一起……
 其实没什么不同,这里的风景依然杀人
 喝着这里的茶叶,有好多当时的回响……
我们住的地方,超舒服,好像一直住在这里……地板好像冰一样
但是有你在,一切变得好温暖❤

 。
玩得好开心,因为你赢钱咯^^

累了,就睡觉,感觉好好
饿了就BBQ~金马伦BBQ,真搞笑!

两个好友
但是……一切已变成过去